…but after the euphoria & joy of my tantric massage a few weeks ago, something happened that brought me back to earth with a massive bump. I’m afraid that blogging about my sexlife or even commenting on other blogs has not been high on my agenda.
I have a couple of things I need to get my head round but as soon as I feel up to it I will be back.
Until then, please bear with me.
Tuesday update: OK, It will probably do me good to write about this so here goes, about ten days ago I bumped into a friend while out shopping who said to me “have you heard about C (a mutual friend that I particularly like), it’s just too awful?” I hadn’t heard so asked her what had happened to C, the reply made my blood run cold, it was any mother’s worst nightmare.
I rushed round to see C, her husband answered the door & beckoned me in. Their son, the same age as our own eldest boy, had been killed in a stupid accident that morning during the early hours. C was in a state of despair & shock that made me feel weak at the knees. He had gone up to the midlands the day before, C had not had the chance to say goodbye to him as he was still in bed when she left for work, he was visiting an old university chum who was getting engaged. A group of them had gone out together to celebrate, somehow he got separated from the rest of the group, CCTV footage picked him up outside the nightclub at one in the morning, twenty minutes later he was hit by a truck on the M69, some four miles from the nightclub. He died instantly.
This truly shocked me to the core. But when I went to the funeral last weekend, even I wasn’t prepared for what I saw and the effect it had on me. C was a destroyed woman, her grief was unbelievable. I’m afraid it has affected me as I keep thinking “there but for the grace of God, go I”. No mother should have to bury her only son, it is not in the natural order of things. I think it will take a long time for me to get over this, but that is nothing compared to what C is going through now.
I started HRT around the first week of last December, as you know, I have found it way WAY better than I was led to believe it was going to be like.
I have already mentioned one odd side effect (the flatulence, which is not directly linked to HRT but to the fact that HRT has made me a bit constipated & the treatment for that is what makes me fart!).
However, I am getting a bit puzzled by what seems to be another side effect…..since Christmas I have been having the most vivid & erotic dreams!! I can only assume that the hormone top-up I am getting is the cause, but hell’s teeth, they are getting more & more……well, rude is the best word I can think of!
Take last night, I dreamed I was lying naked on a flat rock at the bottom of a low cliff, my legs spread wide, masturbating like mad while a crowd of onlookers gathered to watch from the top of the cliff! The more they seemed to shout their encouragement (I could’t make out what they were saying) the more I was goaded to make myself orgasm!
I woke up in such a state of arousal that I would have jumped on Phil were he not due to be somewhere for work much earlier than usual. As it is I was able to finish myself off on record time as I was on the verge of orgasm anyway!
I don’t know how many of you who are reading this are of an age where you may be taking HRT, but if you are, please tell me if you experienced something similar!!
I’ve now been on HRT for practically a month & I have to say the effects have been way better than expected! The hot flushes have stopped completely, I hardly have any sleepless nights, sex is just like it was before the menopause really started and I ejaculate like before. My vaginal membranes are no longer over-sensitive & I produce lubrication without much persuasion!
The only downside is that last night I came on and today has been really heavy. But that seems a small price to pay!
Update: My period finished last Thursday, it was a short one just like they used to be in my 20s. AND last night I was behaving like a 20 year old, my libido is off the scale……if this is HRT then EVERY woman should use it. I’m not kidding, I came more times than I could count (the wet patch was BIG!), I orgasmed twice, then again this morning. Phil is wondering if he needs to take Viagra in order to keep up with me!
Since I started the menopause properly back in September, I’ve become aware of a deterioration in my metabolism, more precisely, my already sluggish bowels have become downright recalcitrant! I mentioned this to my doctor when I went to see him about going on HRT a couple of weeks back & he prescribed a couple of laxative treatments for me as well as pointing me in the direction of a couple of websites on self-help.
Well, I’m not sure if it’s the medication or the diet I’m on, but boy oh boy have I become flatulent! I mean REALLY flatulent. If farting were an Olympic sport I’d be a gold medal winner. I can go through more than two octaves at a time….need I say more?
At least I have brought some amusement to our household, my younger son thinks it’s hilarious, I just hope that I don’t forget myself & let rip while out in public…..
Ok, I’ve had enough trying to be stoic about all this, I’m seriously fed up with the sleepless nights, the hot flushes (even if Phil likes the fact that I sleep naked every night!), the lack of vaginal fluids ect. I am going to see our GP tonight & ask him to put me on HRT.
I work with nurses & midwives & they have all said the same thing: take advantage of what medical science has to offer. With regular check-ups the risk of side effects is controlled. So that’s it. I’m going to give it a try.
By the way, any one who tells you St John’s Wort is a good alternative therapy for sleepless nights is only telling you half the story, it’s a fairly powerful anti-depressant that can seriously affect your ability to respond to sexual stimulation! Since coming off it I have been able to climax much more easily & my ejaculations seem to be getting back to normal!
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A quick update for you, I have seen our GP and after a quick examination to check that the soreness I have been experiencing in the membranes of my inner labia & vagina (not due to any yeast or other infection), he has put me on Elleste Duet HRT.
I will keep you updated on my progress…..
I knew it! Back in late August I was boasting about how the menopause was not having too big an impact on my sex life (see my very first blog “hello world”) and that I was still able to get aroused & ejaculate, well that was the kiss of death!!
I haven’t had a period since then, but more to the point my vaginal secretions have virtually dried up & I haven’t ejaculated since mid-September, despite still being able to climax, albeit with a lot more effort.
So…..this is it, eh? All downhill from here? I swore I would never go for HRT but I may have to swallow my words. Shit, I’m only 53, I’m not ready to be consigned to the sexual scrapheap. Barely two years ago I was enjoying threesomes. now I’m struggling to get wet enough for penetrative sex! Thank goodness for Sylk vaginal lubrication, that’s all I’ve got to say….
…that blows some good! I seem to be getting past the peri-menopausal stage & entering the menopause proper.
I have not had a period for ages & I’m getting the dreaded hot flashes. But one unexpected advantage from my husband’s point of view is that I have been spending more time in minimal clothing in the evenings & going to bed naked instead of in my usual nightdress!
Now, if only I felt like nooky all the time…..<a